Time passes, year after year,
And I still can’t forget.
We used to be so near
Since that day we met;
You didn’t mean to hurt me
But you just wanted what’s best.
All you needed was to see
⁃ see that I wasn’t like the rest.
The Past is behind us, the present minds us;
We’re too good for each other
So we let it bribe us.
Reality says no, but deep inside we still know:
We want it, we need it,
But our egos just won’t give in.
Years of hiding, years of slighting;
Countless moments spent with minds divided.
Who knows what the future holds;
I just that know that you won’t be alone.
As for me, I’d like to see a future full of certainty,
But I know it’s rare to be aware with all the bullshit in the air.
I’ve spent all my life living alone;
I’ve had too many girls to be on my own.
The feeling’s rough, and you know it’s hard,
But what better way to heal up my scar.
Day and night I lay awake;
Pray to God, for my soul’s sake;
And if I don’t get back with you
I know some day you’ll want me, too.
The reasons I can’t have you
Make no sense and feel taboo
But I want you to know that I can do
All the things that he never knew:
The type of lovin’ you need deep inside.
It doesn’t matter what happened then or now;
I’m not concerned, either, with when and how:
When I’m with you, when I see you
All the pain gets eased away.
Every day, with each passing lay
I see the evil seep to decay,
Filling in the emptiness
I’ve felt throughout the loneliness.
Say what you want, you know it’s true,
You felt it the night we made it through
– Dark and cold, I warmed you up,
You lit me me up, but of all you gave me love.
A lonely night? Well, was it really?
We made love all night,
until we were weary
Of those around us and those who’d frown us;
Inquisitive of fate,
we lied in bed afraid
Fearing the consequence,
Contemplating the recompense.
I, always the gentleman, reassured her
This night never happened and it was done.
Our time had come, and there ended the fun;
Our hearts were still full of something we couldn’t explain,
But that was my life – and hers.
A romance, void of gain, yet full of pain.
By Mensur Gjonbalaj
May 28, 2018